The lone Bride

I have really been struggling with loneliness, just as a lot of people do during the Holidays. Loneliness can make you crazy, and make you more inclined to do something out of character.  As I sought for resolve in my time with God today, I found this poem I wrote in September of 2010. I don't even remember writing in, it seemed like I was reading something someone else wrote, but it spoke so deeply too my heart. I wrote this poem as a response to a very dry, lonely time I was experiencing.

The lone Bride

I found myself
Like a long lost friend
I lost her somewhere
Trying to find a solution to this ache
But the more you give, the more it takes

I found myself in you
I'm hungry for your bread
I'm thirsty for your wine
Nothing else in this world can fullfill me inside but you!

I lost myself at some point in time
My soul became a dessert
An endless scape of land
Thirsty, thirsty for the answers
Thirsty for love

I didn't know I was lost until the day I was found
You found me
You took me in your arms
And you loved me

You dressed me in a purple robe
And put a crown on my head
I found myself in you
And now I never have to search again

We're not afraid of God
We are afraid of ourselves and what we could really be
We are afraid to take the journey
For fear that we will hate what we find
So we fill this fear with temporary answers that never satisfy

But we have no need to fear
For all of us are fearfully and wonderfully made
If we find the jewel of who we are within
We shall not be disappointed
For we are created by our Father in Heaven, who gives good and perfect gifts

I stand strong and free as I walk toward your altar
You're waiting there to love me, to satisfy me
You are all I need!

Now that I know you
There is nothing I cannot do
For knowing myself is the key to finding everything I've ever dreamed!

Now I'm walking toward the altar with no body standing there
But I'm standing, strong and confidant that I am not alone

When you know who you are inside
And you know your destiny
You will never be alone again

I will forever be free!!