2013 was a year of immense spiritual growth in my life. I was crowned Ms. Wheelchair Washington in March and Ms. Wheelchair America in July. This fast and upwards promotion in my life was both a blessing and a huge challenge. As I began to travel around the nation, most of the time alone, I realized some very broken, depleted parts of myself. In the midst of the joy of being promoted I also experienced severe anxiety, sleep deprivation and emotional weakness. In this bitter sweet year I learned so much. I dug deep into the presence of God and asked for healing and wisdom. These are a few nuggets of wisdom that I learned this year...
TALENTS: Read the Parable of the Talents Mathew 25. God has given each of us talents. These talents are meant to be seen and shared with the world. As we shine, we give glory to the Father and share in His happiness.
DESTINY: Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Time and again this year I have seen how God works for my good. There were miracles big and small of happenstance, provision, and changed lives where I saw God working for my good as I walked in the purpose He has for my life.
WEAKNESS: 2 Corinthians 12:10 "That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." I have never felt so weak as I did this year at times, when I was anxious or sleep deprived or lacking resources, God always provided the strength I needed. I am learning, that as I admit my weakness and bring my needs before God, He is present and comforting. Although I have been promoted, I must not put myself on a pedestal, for the higher I raise myself the farther I have to fall, but if i fall in a humble stance, I fall into grace.
LOVE:Romans 8:35 "Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?" I need love and so does everyone in the world and God has an infinite supply. I discovered that I thought needing love was weak. A lot of us suffer from an orphans mentality about love. Mostly because many of us have felt withheld from in many circumstances in life, but God does not withhold His love, He pours it out infinity. I have began to open my needs before the Lord and in tears ask Him to meet them, and He does.
2014 holds many blessings and I have many needs in order for them to come to pass. So I lay them at the feet of my King, trusting that He can do far more than I cam imagine. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!